7 years ago I was still sitting in hospital, with my tiny baby that was born 3 weeks earlier, with no answer, no hope and no idea.
The drs had just started talking about genetic testing, I felt like a child, lost and alone. They showed me some old medical books detailing what they were testing for and left me alone to read about this strange french cat –
Shorter life expectancy
All these words jumping off the page, my heart pounding, my mind racing. It would be a week before I got the official confirmation.
I don’t know how long I sat there alone staring at that page like it was some code to be deciphered. Some trick my mind was playing.
I wish I knew then what I know now.
What an amazing girl Ella would grow into, what a wonderful life we would have. That the feelings I felt would become distant memories and we would laugh, smile and enjoy life.