Diagnosis, Ella, Special needs parenting

Flashback

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7 years ago I was still sitting in hospital, with my tiny baby that was born 3 weeks earlier, with no answer, no hope and no idea.
The drs had just started talking about genetic testing, I felt like a child, lost and alone. They showed me some old medical books detailing what they were testing for and left me alone to read about this strange french cat –
Shorter life expectancy
Heart issues
Health issues
Mental retardation
All these words jumping off the page, my heart pounding, my mind racing. It would be a week before I got the official confirmation.
I don’t know how long I sat there alone staring at that page like it was some code to be deciphered. Some trick my mind was playing.
I wish I knew then what I know now.
What an amazing girl Ella would grow into, what a wonderful life we would have. That the feelings I felt would become distant memories and we would laugh, smile and enjoy life.

3 thoughts on “Flashback”

  1. It’s a gift to take a “challenge” or challenging situation and rise to the heights that you have Mel. Ella is the child she is today thanks to the determination and resilience you have. It’s obviously not an easy road for you guys but the way you’re travelling it is inspirational xx

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