Special needs parenting

For the parent of a newly diagnosed child

Ella is almost 8 now, and while in the scheme of things I guess thats not very long, but for me, I feel like, well, like I’ve got experience (wait… I had a life before this!?)  Ella was 3 weeks old when she was diagnosed with cri du chat, a rare genetic disability, you can read about it Here and Here and now I’m writing the post that I wish had read, way back then.
But this isn’t about me dear reader, it’s about you.
Maybe you’ve just gotten a diagnosis of a genetic disorder for your baby, ASD for your older child, or one of the umpteen other possible diagnosis out there. Welcome to the club that no one wants to be part of, but I can promise you, That this club, with all its ups and downs, is full of amazing, inspirational and strong people.  I can promise you, not matter how you’re feeling right now, in this moment, that you will get through it.

1) Breath

Just… breath.  Sometimes you’ll feel like you can’t do it, like its too hard.  In 8 years, I’ve felt like I can’t handle it countless times, and you know how many times I’ve handled it?  ALL OF THEM (so far) and I’m nothing special.
So Take your moment, (hell, take 10!) to re-focus your energy and while your world may be falling apart, you are the world to a little person, so take your moment, scream into pillows, pace, rant, cry in the shower, do whatever you need to do. and then (this is the important bit) pick yourself up, and continue to be the world for your child.  You’re a bad ass, you got this.

2) Be kind to yourself

You’re not perfect, no body is.  You will make mistakes, you will falter, you will sometimes make the wrong choice.  Try not to feel guilty for you feelings.  your feelings are valid, always.  Personally, when Ella was diagnosed, and I was staring down this dark barrel of the unknown, and in my darkest moments, I wished things I’m now ashamed of.  I felt like I didn’t want her, I felt like I had failed her already.  Like I couldn’t do it.  and I was depressed.  You can’t help the way you feel, and there is nothing wrong with getting help to work through those feelings, until you can get to a place of acceptance.
And along the same lines, don’t feel guilty for decisions you’ve already made.  It might be a therapy that turned out to be useless, or a surgery that didn’t fix what it was supposed to (I had Ella’s tonsils and adenoids out when she wasn’t even 2 yet, after being told it will fix hr breathing issues.  It didn’t. 🤦‍♀️)  As long as you’re aking the best decision you know how, with the information you have at the time, You’re doing ok.  remember, hindsight is always 20/20

3) It’s ok to be mad

In fact it’s probably really normal to be mad!  furious! No body likes it when their plans are changed, without any warning.  So go ahead and RAGE at the diagnosis, at the dr that told you, at the circumstance, and the whole damn world.  but similarly to before, If you find yourself dwelling in this, find some help to get passed it, because the best is yet to come.

4) Focus on the now

When Ella was diagnosed, I remember reading ALL about cri du chat, I remember so clearly I was stressing what school would Ella go to.  It went something like this… “OMG what am I going to do there’s no specialist school in my town, would she be able to go to mainstream, I’m going to have to move house, how will I afford that …” and it went on, and on, and on.  Eventually while lamenting over this, another (much smarter and wiser) special needs parent laughed and pointed out that ELLA IS ONE MONTH OLD YOU DILL, and not to focus on things that are 5 years away.
So that’s my advice to you, focus on what you can.  whether that be only a year from now, a month, a week or even the next hour.   The funny thing about the future is, it’s not going anywhere.

5) Don’t be afraid to say NO!

You are now an advocate.  While I will always advocate listening to the drs, therapist and experts.  They have hopefully studied and know all about your childs condition…  But you know your child.   The experts can be wrong.  for example, I was told Ella would never walk.  and yet by 5 years old, she could!  That being said, there were several times I stopped  physio session half way because I knew she’d had enough.  Or pushed her to finish because I knew she could.
So It’s ok to to say “no, he’s had enough”.  Or “No, he can learn this”

6) Find your humans, ones you can turn to.

The biggest thing is YOU’RE NOT ALONE!  There are others like you out there you just have to find them!  I thought I would never find anyone ‘like me’ (swears, single at the time, drinks, acts young even though I’m totally not, coffee addict) I even wrote a post about it (here) But I did, I found people like me, and people that aren’t, some that are parents of typical children, special needs children and some that aren’t parents at all.  One of my biggest supports is a lady that I used to work with, many many years ago, who lives over the other side of the country, But she’s always the first to give me feedback and have a chat. So I can’t stress this one enough find your support however that looks for you.  It could be religious groups (totally not my thing, but some people find it so helpful) , mothers meetings, therapy, or facebook groups.  find someone you can talk to.  And if you have none, message me, (email Insta Facey) I’m almost always up for a chat, and maybe I could point you in the right direction.

7) Ask for help

Another thing I’ve learned throughout the years is people want to help, especially your friends, but they might not know how!  If you’re struggling, ask!  as above, hopefully you have some support, call your friends, tell them if you need help, and (this is the hard bit) how to help you. You might need someone to do some laundry while you’re staying in hospital, or someone to take the other kids while you have an appointment with your special needs kiddo. Or you might even just need someone to come over for a coffee to listen, or take the kids while you get a rest.  the bottom line is, you can’t do it all, and you don’t have to.  

8) Nothing has changed

not really anyway.  Something that’s always made me feel better, the sun will set tonight, and rise tomorrow, and everything will carry on.  Yes your life feels like its turned upside down.  and the future might be very different than the one you once imagined,  but he’s still the precious baby you loved yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that.  and you will still love him tomorrow, and all the days after.

9) It will be OK

No, really.  It will.

So what do you think, and What would you add to the list?  let me know! 🙂

6 thoughts on “For the parent of a newly diagnosed child”

  1. 😘 the only thing wrong with this blog is where you say “ you’re nothing special” because you are ! You’re an amazing mum and person. Doing a wonderful job of parenting 2 beautiful kids the good old fashioned way 👌🏼👍🏼

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  2. “As long as you’re making the best decision you know how, with the information you have at the time, You’re doing ok. remember, hindsight is always 20/20” – Thank you for this! ❤


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